rebuilding a castle

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the castle was shaken last week. some of the building blocks chipped and dropped to the ground. it shook pretty hard; most of the occupants ran out to the forest and hide for good.


the ground is getting more stable now; there are talks of rebuilding the castle. the king promised no more castle shaking actions,  and the queen needs time to see what is promised; delivered.


realistically queen, you gotta have some faith that the king will live up to his words. if it wasn't for the bad habits of the queen smacking the wall ever so often, there wouldn't be no shakin' yes?


queen - take some accountability. the king is merely reacting. the king has needs and what he needs is for the queen to stop smackin' around the castle like her habits is only what matters.


what about what the king wants?
the queen loves the castle and the king. a whole bunch. and the queen is trying; really trying coz tendering for a new castle would be a hell of work. and the existing castle is worth saving.


has the queen made a convincing case to the king about trying? judging from today's comment, no. and queen is sad, clearly. but then again... sigh. queen is held back by the threat of another consort looming in the air. uncertainty sucks big time dear queen. knowing and not knowing pose equally torturing pain.


queen is fully aware of her flaws - no luscious lips, big fat bone, greying hairs and a heart that has a slide for temperature. how can a queen beat a younger and prettier consort?


the castle remains standing right now. chipped at corners. maybe one of these days the king and queen can start picking up the rubbles and glue them back to strength.



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