Messy Mind of Mine

Late last year, we booked ourselves a trip to B. I thought, wow, I had a good deal and made the right investment, considering. It did not happen. Compensated with M. So we went to M instead. B would remain a dream for at least another 6 months as another trip to B is on the schedule for Dec. Lessons learnt:  make time to compare prices, not all promotions are good especially if it is offered by a company owned by a friend who take selfie every friggin day make time to choose wisely, not all promotions are good especially if it is offered by a company owned by a friend who take selfie every friggin day make time to check out reviews and ask others for inputs, not all promotions are good especially if it is offered by a company owned by a friend who take selfie every friggin day. Yes, it was a friend. Okay, not close but someone I know, or knew. Someone I thought has credibility (and clearly money as she travels and flaunts a lot on FB) and success and confidence in...

I love you, darling. 

I hit it yesterday. While i was driving home and all thats happened replayed in my head. Couldnt quite finish my dinner, lost the wants to do anything and right now, i just wish i could dissappear. The emotional turbulence in my heart is so bad.

My evil thought would always say this: i am a mere money machine to my family. I serve no purpose nor have the intelligence beyond handing out money.  Am i sad? To always be treated like i cant complete even a transaction on my own for family?  I think i am beyond sad. I am utterly heart broken. And i cant do shit about this.