Messy Mind of Mine

I cried so many times today. Despite sending pm report to bosses sending krisx cpd memo sending krisx foresight common seal

I did badly today in facilitating the discussion. My ego says its my track so i should be facilitating and guiding the discussion.  Instead Ili was doing most of the talking. I feel/ felt bad. But not really2 bad. Am i better at reframing myself?  I dont want to be too hard on myself. But i cant shake the feeling that i am not performing.

despite the manageable feeling yesterday, the low self esteem disease caught up with me today. 

R sent a proposal for whole friggin sector! dumbfucked. and here i am struggling with one dept. 

i have no words for today. i reached out to ili and shared my partial view.  i didnt do well in my mtg w alexa or arab.

Alone watching the circle. Trying to name my feeling at this moment - abt my anxiety to others' non- response to my messages, abt my anxiety whether i will do well later, whether my team will support me, whether i am doing what i am supposed to. Am i doing it right? Truth is, i feel scared.