never underestimate the power of a well written letter
this is what annual leave gives you - the time and space to re-evaluate and capture the thinking into yet another post in a long abandoned blog.
this was where we started. of course, not kooks or kicks or kinks. I used to have this blog that I loved so much, and when the ex found me I didn't think twice about deleting it. stupid me, could have just changed the add.
the affair took years; years of lies. and we came together finally, at the expense of others. now that's a regret I wont ever escape from. though now we can see the hikmah of it - she is safely married to a guy who makes her happy.
about 9 years now, as with other things in life, I suppose I got complacent. everything is happening like clock work so what's there to enhance yes? wow - I failed to see the gap widening.
perhaps its true what she said about me - at times I think like a man. dismissal is my middle name. I think less, consider less. and always always focus only on me, me, me.
[at this point, I would die for someone to say --- noooo, its not you baby. *idiot*]
and of course, the hot hot chicken shit way of mine. :P they never last, I lack discipline to follow through my efforts. and she noticed it and said it to me several times too.
so how now brown cow?
this was where we started. of course, not kooks or kicks or kinks. I used to have this blog that I loved so much, and when the ex found me I didn't think twice about deleting it. stupid me, could have just changed the add.
the affair took years; years of lies. and we came together finally, at the expense of others. now that's a regret I wont ever escape from. though now we can see the hikmah of it - she is safely married to a guy who makes her happy.
about 9 years now, as with other things in life, I suppose I got complacent. everything is happening like clock work so what's there to enhance yes? wow - I failed to see the gap widening.
perhaps its true what she said about me - at times I think like a man. dismissal is my middle name. I think less, consider less. and always always focus only on me, me, me.
[at this point, I would die for someone to say --- noooo, its not you baby. *idiot*]
and of course, the hot hot chicken shit way of mine. :P they never last, I lack discipline to follow through my efforts. and she noticed it and said it to me several times too.
so how now brown cow?
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