Year in review: 2021

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Cliche. But yes, what a frackin' year. 

I grew and outgrew depression, sought help from a Counsellor (met 2x), on road to recovery

I spent weeks working remotely from SP with limited internet connection, and still commented as 'doing well' by my boss. Yay! 

I spent tons of money on a number of people, alhamdulillah, blessed to still have enough for me to live well and within my chosen lifestyle. Alhamdulillah. I bought a dyson vacuum, a samsung TV, a new set of everything for my mom's room, a microwave, a new fridge, a new couch (WIP) and..a new iphone 😍

I grew wider friendship gap with JC, which doesn't bother me at all

I met the upper-bosses more times in 2021, than I had in the last 20 years of my career there

I survived a project, in which, I was not performing well at all (read bullet #1)

I survived a project, which I hated since day 1 (read bullet #1) but presented to MC. 😈

I offended a boss, by way of her reading my WA messages during a Teams call that NL opened during shared screen mode. I apologised, never got a reply. She cold-storaged me in her own ways. It is alright, I guess.

I fucked up a major work, and took full responsibility for it, despite it being another person's shitty work (it's called accountability, and I fucking hate it)

I survived many crying-alone sessions (read bullet #1)

I spent many hours worrying about Mak and yapping about it with my KL sister (read bullet #1). It is still a long journey - we tried keeping her there, keeping her here.. tiring. Trying out a caretaker approach hoping it will work out

I constantly think about doing another umrah but everything is not in place yet. I think about trying out chic hotels, near-beach places, good food but all must wait for now. I consider changing car but the processes turn me off, and I am still thinking about buying cash (but which car?). 

My sciatica continues....

I did so little exercise and gaining weight as I am typing this. Fucks.

Year of vaccination - sinovac (2x) and potential pfizer tomorrow?

SOA on Netflix's last day is 31/12. Sucks. Lucky Peaky Blinders still around!

GA on Netflix's last day is 31/12. Don't think I will miss so much of it. I think.

2021 is a year of anxiety, stress and depression. Fucky fucks. 💦


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